I am an as**ual god
The self breeding mother of hate
Or maybe that's just how I feel
I reflect what I receive every day
In my world so full of lies
I reflect the pain I suffer every time
I spit out your filthy ugly name
It seems you radiate the sun
Inside you were hit with the ugly stick
I never ever felt more dead
Than when I got inside you
This extension of my hand
Will rid us all of shit li...
Left alone - with fingers bleeding
Try to claw - something worth keeping
On my knees - and bleeding
And you just don't give a f***
A new betrayal - f***ed hard again
Stripped to bone - by one more set of friends
Tear it down - no feelings of shame
Set up to be knocked down again
You have
No morals
Twisted
Selfishness
I hate you
Kill you if I
Wasn't gutless
Foul taste
Of piss
In my throat from ...
Question myself till I bleed
Will I live to spoil another day
The answers lost in mud
I won't if it goes on this way
And what if you discovered that
I could not give a f***
Would you crumble, start to fall
Just like I have a hundred times before
Blacken my face
Distort my features
I'll be no-one soon
I was told to bank on 70
22's been hard enough
Search for a space to hide in
The life I have's...
Down on your knees you cry for help
Unleashed the rage, no reprieve
What you've done is coming back around
Instant karma, appropriate I believe
Laugh out loud I beat you harder
Both hands broken you can't fight back
For years you tried to break me
Turned round no fists my odds are stacked
Strapped and abused in misery
Chewed up pissed on cast aside
No place for me in your plan for life
Learned...
It starts right now
Stake my claim for the throne of incompetence
Come last at everything - every time
I have failed at all I have attempted
Childhood goals tipped and up-ended
And you just look at me and say I f***ing told you so
You're not the king of me I'm the king of me
So why do I still beg for your attention
My name remains a filthy word unfit for you to mention
I'm f***ing shit, I'm re...
You cannot touch me
Will never feel me
I'll lock myself in a shell of shame
So you can never know me
Been bitten by your type before
Opened up and let you into me
Paint myself a new way just for you
Protect me
And I never begged
Never ever pleaded
Fought tooth and nail for
Anything I ever needed
Good morning, It's a new day
I think I'll just be on my own
This isolation makes me secure
Effect o...
When it's dark and I'm alone I cry for peace but they won't go.
And this is killing me but I can never let you know
It's more than I can take, I sink - I drown - I cannot float
And they keep pushing me the rope constricts my f***ing throat again...
You don't know what it's like if you did you'd never want me
To be there - And if I made you understand, you'd have
it an you'd BE IN THIS MESS
Dra...
I'm dazed and contused alone now feeling confused one more time
I'm f***ed up animosity has been struck up
You were supposed to be my friends this not so good thing how it ends
There is no way to make amends forced to my knees - I'm screaming
Beat down and raised up piss half fills the loving cup
Our bonding now breaking been giving - now I'm taking
Tried hard to be the best I could brought ho...
Esconced in turgid lakes of sweat
The animals up to their necks
A heaving mass of evil shit
Sins that manifest themselves in s**
I feel that I've been done wrong
Pushed and laughed at way to long
Bestial ructions in fullest flowing
The filthy juices ripe on my tongue
To hurt myself priority
Punishment overdue rolls free
Senses race to ascertain the breach
Drown in pools of blood-soaked piss
Ra...