to be out from under
to be yours again
tearing this asunder
talking now and then
to understand just what they see
this seeming meaningless story
remember me
through a mirror dimly
distance slowly deadens
only pieces of a looking glass remain
ashes are left, no more than dust
where they see beauty I see rust
say I will see you again
let this final line of light fold underneath
with resolve supine, 'till morning blush and quicken
what did this day bring?
I wish the sun would go quench its blistering thirst
beneath the waters
another round for your sake
here it comes
another quarrel I am going numb
a mouthful of yesterday
is all that??s now left to say
and i??m ever anxious to spit
or choke on it either way
on one hand it??s off of my chest
the other will put it to rest
and so out of my misery
tell me which do you think is the best?
and right now I've got to
do something before it
gets any worse
you know we can't ignore it
I know just what you would say
it just works out good this way
so...
it's beyond me how i could have missed
it wasn't supposed to end up like this
written all over my face
desperation and self doubt
gotta get back to a place
where the sun sometimes comes out
leave it all without a trace and drop out
say the word
i'm waiting, give the sign
every element of your design
out of sight
your wishes never show
say the word and just like that we'll go
paying for the thi...
i've been feeling beat and brokenhearted
don't want to complete the things i've started
the noise, the fuzz, the radiating buzz
the way everything does
it's so loud
surprised, ashamed, the object of the game
is sounding all the same
it surrounds
sky deliver me before i'm bled
from the crowded airwaves overhead
conquered and undone
so worn and faded
when everything's become
so complicated
a lot...
walking it hand in hand and free while you're impacted
don't you go and abandon me when i'm distracted
begin again and i'll be fine
what'd you mean to say?
i'm having a most difficult time hearing you today
come on up why are you waiting?
do i have to say i'm sorry?
would you consider staying another day in spite
of the things i've been saying?
so i can make it right
don't fall out of line
so ...
i need to start up again
something to get me excited
places where i've never been
i need to begin take me through the open door
where to go cannot conceive
but i know that i can't stay here
i need somebody to see
someone to believe
that i can do something more
after a while you could forget what you've heard
another mile, but know i meant every word
stay here with me, while i am passionate yet...
the red follow pink
voices and eyes trembling tell you
of my stance, one last glance
on the brink
intellect flees its cell
so long now,
I'll swallow whole
or utter stillborn sentiment
she knows how
for she taught me
but could it be me that was wrong?
she summons a tear
as all her efforts decay
years reverse, it's much worse
than she fears
her firstborn inveighs
mixed up month
and too soon to be over me and you
with your sudden stop today
driving the last of us away
and the girl in rearview tries
i can only see her eyes
she's bracing for the crash
and i wonder who's at fault
as i'm screeching to a halt
but too late
words much too curt
do they smart?
does it hurt?
the pavement sweats beneath
slighting my efforts to relieve you
of the years it takes
but...
driving nowhere
driving fast
and the days are fl ying past
my momentum slows and i brake for the coming turn
circle once around the block
taking notice of the clock
it turns out of time and in spite of my will
skips a beat while my heart stands still
think you'll figure it out?
think you'll ever begin?
think you'll ever amount to much?
do you think you'll win?
gotta plan
got to devise
getting ...
at the big blue summer noon
from this tiny space
window parts the open heart
with quickened pace
how can this be?
nothing can assure
a section this small of the I endures
half ell belle with plastic legs that are too long
dress her up to sing a different song
yesterday this, that the day before
this won??t last a second more
diving in the wishing well
look for what I lack
but every tarnished c...
goodbye to what if
hello to never
so long to someday too
just dig a hole
and put my coffin under how many times
have i tried to sever?
how long until i'm through
but if i let go
i know i'll often wonder
so never run
i can think a way out of it
don't pretend to know how
but i know why
try to swim but don't sink
come up above it
treading water right now
it's do or die
i know better than anyone i...
this one i can beat
this one i'll survive
if i could rest
with meaning replete
while hope is alive and thought suppressed
and when i look out
the universe slings
a shooting star
don't want to see doubt
i want to see things
for what they are
but if i can awake
from a dream i mistake for reality then would you let me in?
and sanity blurs
give credit to chance if it is due
the thought of it stirs...
reflecting in quiet places where you haunt
the unsuspecting
you're almost everything i want you to be
perfection undiluted found
but as for me
i can't get my head around you at all
i'm troubled i'll wonder to the very end
why always i'm followed by my imaginary friend
just you run along
you haven't heard a word i've said
back where you belong
confined within a book i've read
still you sing you...
side the lake and spokes go round
this way make through rusty brown
in a corner, in the shadows
and the sunlight makes the clouds glow
june one just me
orbiting at apogee
june one to remind
turn it over, over in time
at the end of these white walls
I pretend the still life calls
through the waters, under bridges
for a moment I could swear that you looked at me
look ahead and see the place to meet me
is only about halfway
but fissures running up your face defeat me
and echo the words i say
it's a stone I would throw after-
but you're much too far away
and i'd be sure to miss
you'll remember i said this, one day
consider the lesser ones
your daughters and yes, your sons
let it come, and with it bring
feeling anew
but it don't mean a thing
to you
you g...
you know it's always difficult to trace
the subtle expression moving on your face
this side of you i haven't ever seen before
asking me if i ever want something more
i do
there's melody in everything you say striking a chord with me that i can't play
all cares suspend
from start to end
of your simple symphony the sound is clear
refrain sincere
???do you feel the same as me????
i do
everyone
is pushing into me
and now the sun
is shining into morning
i try
and remember your name
i try,
but it's never the same
build it out a mile wide
high enough that you can hide
make it out of what might have been
you say you??ll come out, but when?
down below, reddening the surface
you're bleeding so, what ever made you nervous?
blush, a dead giveaway
hush, there??s nothing to say
you sp...
my friend
the flower taking flight
on end of any open field alight
tell me the shadows standing still
miss me just say that you will
a month in passing never noticed you
a month of passing time in solitude
while at the base of yet another day, it's ok
another month is standing in the way
my friend
like a needle stick your stem
the skin of mother earth to prick
it bleeds the blood of second tho...
i'll take the lead
catch me if you can
one final look
we're never going back again
come on you can't miss
follow me and see
you're making this
harder than it has to be
it's in your eyes
i can't explain
not in disguise
but not the same
do i even know you anymore?
falling apart
this i can attest
but i know your heart continues beating in your chest
when to begin?
tomorrow, so you say
i wonder wh...
hey, so how does it go?
your face doesn't show
me whether or not you know.
stop and back up again
this mess that you??re in...
is it over?
i heard all about everything
i felt in the way.
i heard all about everything
will you be ok?
so, you're spinning your wheels,
go dig in your heels,
don't mind the burning rubber.
no use losing your tread
while losing your head,
shift to neutral.
sooner or l...
soon i'll have the nerve
and give what you deserve
maybe i'll be nice
by grading on a curve
belated and complicated
and i know you won't feel the same
too bad it had to come back this way
she only knows god
and has no other friends
do you think it odd?
i guess it all depends
until we meet again...
set it up
burn it down
and in vain the fires will erupt and surround
but the pain inspires
warming hands by the heat
that i'm doomed to repeat
again and again
beneath the spreading flame
under the poison plume
i always feel the same
whenever these thoughts i assume
you'd better know your way though this
you're choking on your every care
just fi nd a way to breathe the thinning air
it's a game
...
reaping the seeds i planted
things that i always took for granted
i feel a little bit unstable
tell me if i'm willing are you able
to come and help me out right now?
if you do, i'm resolute
i won??t back down
broken and i'm still breaking
change is my latest undertaking
i??m only hoping that tomorrow
has a greater hope for me to borrow
i??m separated from the rest
i will try, but i can only do...
inside a shape of equal sides
that number three
with eyes inane
reminding of this urgency
scalene so far
uncertain of everyone
and by degrees,
isosceles comes
I know it came out from the inside
I know places where you can hide
taken on an angle less than twenty-seven
nothing more
spoken of a fable and a candle broken on the floor
intent on coming clean
unfolding with the scene
and on the paper waded and tossed on the floor
she idles by and counts
the days while pressure mounts
sick with regret and fearing all tomorrow
doors once open now are shut
maybe they're not locked yet, but
do you wonder?
is it too late?
was it worth it?
was it so great?
do you wonder how different everything might have been?
and could it be agai...
silhouette
only your outer line
shape of my indecision
as of yet
details are undefined
true to your definition
i doubted
separated by some eclipse
found the right words
but they only died on my lips
they always die on my lips
silhouette
you must be something real
remember the time it's taken thought i'd forget
come on now, it's no big deal
you'd think so, but you're mistaken
i'm tired
and ever...
a simple song about anything but what I would normally sing about
all smiles and a catchy tune
and pretty soon I'll forget I'm here
I know these things work out
you're weeping, I'm keeping these secrets all to myself
no need to start up a fight
if that's all right, I'll remain silent
I know these things work out
you were under water
walking on the ocean floor
so far from shore
cold and uninvit...
lifted limbs and digits cling to a cloak called
innocent simplicity and a rag doll
and that??s all
you??re obliged to say whatever
more or less just saving face
after all this time still in the same place
what you take lightly
what you don??t care about
but it just might be something beautiful
something you can??t live without
when in doubt don??t start without taking issue
think again, my fri...
taken back by some other way
'till i've another one
still, it's unnerving
this small force today
what can i say
i'm numb
overhead the greatest moment has come
but has fl own to high to be of use to an ordinary man
even one who tries
and although my hope does retire
hope that it might return
though by myself
i could start up a fire
the flames would no longer burn
falling, failing now
they mass here at mid day
such a quandary how
I was with them so long
again, I was wrong
you're kneeling there
with furtive eyes on me
and you say
turn your head, face the jury
turn again, face your peers
we have gathered to listen
to what we want to hear
bemused, confused so
much ado about nothing
abuse ensues, though
when I reply, you offer
you try, you falter
a spool of...
talk in circles near incessant
and effervesce here in our presence
bubble up, bubble break
a burst of warm air rises and disappears
wasted words a black hole finds them
pull, pull me past event horizon
round and round, nothing found
the gravity of speaking small gets me down
talk about the weather, long as we're together
on and on and over again
current pulling under, do you ever wonder how
we...
so different when
across the lake
blue green eyed hour
caught us in the wake
i hope she feels the
way that i do
i rippled when
to me she spoke
and rode the wave
even as it broke
i'm riding still
i hope forever
the sun will regret shining
i won't forget
but will you?
do you believe in us still
can we see this thing through?
arrest my fears
and be content
it??s taken years
but it??s time well sp...
it dawned on me that you are not able
to get up off the floor
if up to me i would have brought this up before
but only after can i see clearly
that things have gone amiss
if i had returned it would not have ended up like this
up in the air, falling down empty handed
while unaware of the ground where you landed
quot;don't follow me and you'll be doing fine,quot;
just don??t give me that line.
i...
drink down what i want to be
and ever from a glass that is half empty
down to my last dime, as such
and optimism costs too much
now seeing double it seems
under the influence of these dreams
the outcome too early to tell
but it isn't going very well
so i stagger on
but if this keeps up
it won't be long
till i'm forced to choose
how much time can i loose?
but i'm not ready
to trade in my dream
...
red eyed wonder why and how
i thought you would've left by now
so these thoughts can expire
so bow and reintroduce
what years labored to produce
these habits make it hard to shake you loose
because i don't know, i'm resisting
but you seem to go on existing
in the back of my head, can i do it again?
will you come back my friend?
hair brained
hover in my head
still and small the things you said
...
