As I ponder my thoughts and fears and life
I stand tempted to throw it all away
So I sit and I slowly lose my mind
Look for signs of you, just to feel it again
Need to find my way back home again
A place where I can feel myself again
Leave the world behind and start again
Again
As I gather myself I know that I
Still stand tempted to throw it all away
So I sit and I watch the world pass by
Look...
I can't stay forever
And you're too insulting to me, darling
I can't live forever
And be who they want me to be
I, I cannot pretend
I will not surrender these dreams in my head
I, I will not disguise
They cannot cover the stars in my eyes
Asleep I lie
Fall, like I do
Will this be the first time for you?
Walk on me, I walk on you
Stuck on me, stuck on you
I, I cannot pretend
I will not surrende...
Hopelessly, silently,
I want you to set me free,
Watch me, make me cling.
Take my hand,
you feel so cold
I can't hold you
like the day indistinct
Little bit, a little bit, a little, a little bit
little...
A little bit closer
Litte bit, a little bit, a little, a little bit
little...
A little bit closer
No I can't explain
Little bit, a little bit closer...
Why I feel so strange
Little bit, a lit...
Stuck inside
A world inside my head
A place where I think too much
A place that no one can touch
My Godforsaken fear
And though I don't pray enough I want to
I want to thank you for the tears I've cried
Hope you gave to me
I want to show you what I've kept inside
That takes control of me
Thought sometimes
I was left behind
Alone and all by myself
Forced to look at myself
I never will believe
T...
I, wonder what the day will bring tomorrow
When I wake
Why, do I decide to dwell upon mistakes
I haven't made?
Maybe I'm afraid
So I try
I try to find the words to explain
Why I feel so down?
Aey
Why I feel so down?
So down?
So
Don't ask why
Don't ask why
I could care less of the world outside
One more time
One more time
I will come out of the dark of my mind
Who knows what I find
Still I try
...
So you finally found a way to lessen all your pain
What you'd give to feel again for even just the day
And as you search to find the words for someone to relate
You realize all your faults were never their mistakes
And everything starts to fall apart
Covered in ink to hide these scars
And everything ends the way it starts
I just wanna feel like I belong
Could this be the one last time that bri...
So you finally found a way to lessen all your pain
What you'd give to feel again for even just the day
And as you search to find the words for someone to relate
You realize all your faults were never their mistakes
And everything starts to fall apart
Covered in ink to hide these scars
And everything ends the way it starts
I just wanna feel like I belong
Could this be the one last time that bri...
You stay all in one piece when broken
Kind remarks and your words soft spoken
Driving far from the path of destruction
Coming ever so close to, throwing it all away again
Is this all some great big lie?
Twisted and working on something deep down
That you should've never kept inside
How much must I live through just to get away?
All this tension and so alive
How much must I live through just to...
Hollow seem the stars in the sky
Where my dreams they seem to follow
Shadows in the walls of my mind
And these thoughts that seem so shallow
I can't make sense of all this
Delivered to confusion from bliss
Suffered so long and I miss
Feeling alive
No, I'm not scared to say goodbye, I've had enough
Of your sick and twisted lies
And your cold and heartless words
When you're slowly coming to
No, ...
Strapped down and heavy
Tied up and bound
This weight I carry
This weight I've found
So, let me be the one to say
I've really had enough
Downfallen on
Yes, you meant the world to me
My sweet love
So headstrong
Are you?
Strong
Watch me fall
One down too many
You let me down
Won?t think what could be
Can?t feel much now
Downfallen on
Yes, you meant the world to me
My sweet love
So headstrong
Are...
Looking through the hole of time
I can see the end is coming
Closer I can hear it calling
Beating away at me
Touching every soul in fear
Comforting from far and near
Now I wish you all the best
In all of your misery
In all of your misery
In all of your misery
Angry and I'm feeling so scared
Only 'cuz I wanna face all these fears I close my eyes
I'm drifting out far away
Angry and I'm feeling s...
Wipe away your tears
Put away your pain tonight
Run away until you finally see the light
Sing a song with me
Hush the quiet scream inside
See the world through different eyes
Hear no more the sound of lies...
Can't you run?
A pretty one that's shaken up inside...
Can't you hear?
I hear them call her name, misSunderstood
She's unpredictable and...
Hear the cold wind blow outside
Try to feel the...
I struggled with this pain inside, but it was too strong
You looked so catatonic, ya knew it was wrong
Destructive, tainted, heated words scraped off your tongue
Singing wholly sinful song
If you feel the way I feel
And you want to go to Heaven for the first time
One more time
If you feel the way I feel
And you want to go to Heaven for the first time, oh
You wanna know the reason why I am the ...
Sometimes I feel as though my life's getting stranger
Now I need to find a way, to get this strain off of my back
Sometimes we need to lock the door and throw away the key
Sometimes we need to learn to let be
Yeah, it's nice to feel the sun
Yeah, it's nice to feel the sun
So I awake to find that, I'm in no danger
I finally found the strength I need still, spinning on my back
And now I feel the...
Don't leave me alone, I'm feeling so numb
I need you to be here, I need you to call
And everything's wrong, a beautiful shame
And everything's ugly, hazy, and gray
And doesn't it hurt? Trick and control you
Deceive and destroy you
Doesn't it hurt? Forget and move on
I'm here and I'm strong
I've got you to blame when it's finally done
I'm not afraid
Of these feelings here inside
I'm sure someda...
Wait, there is too much on my mind
Are we here just to simply pass the time?
All these questions awake inside my head
All these questions awake inside me
Wait, there is too much on my mind
Are we here just to simply pass the time?
All these questions awake inside my head
All these questions awake inside me
Now, what I would give, what I would try
To be with just an ordinary girl
What I would g...
Once was a time
I'd give my world to you
But it was never enough
Swore by your hand
But you never told the truth
That's when I saw myself in you
I'm rotten inside
I'm weak and I'm frightened
Of the things that you might find
I'm rotten inside again
I'm weak and I'm frightened
Of the things that you might find
What could I
What could I
Do to make everything alright?
Left me again
Like I always ...
I hope I'm not too late
I hope that you're okay
I left in a hurry
As soon as they told me
So I prayed for you
Hang on till tomorrow
Just don't leave me here today
I'm comin' home to you
Should've been there
Should've been there I wanted to
Should've been there
Should've been there right next to you
Should've been there
Should've been there to comfort you
Should've been there
Should've been the...
And if you could make up
For every single time you lied
I'd probably whisper this
Hello, goodbye
And so it begins again
Harder each and every time
I start to reminisce
I never seem to ever find
Someone I can trust
Someone I believe
Someone who will never try
To bring me to my knees
Someday I will find again
Someone just like me
Someone who will take the time
In understanding me
And if I could ...
I never cared much for this world
I just want to be someone like you
But I never said I wouldn't reach
Deep down to blow them all away
I can feel it
But I don't know where my life's supposed to go
I can see it
But I'm covered by the fear of the unknown
I could hear it
But my head's too sick to listen on my own
Wanna do it my way
I never had much of my own
I just wanna feel the sun like you
But...
Last night I dreamed that you were dead
The only way that I could find to clear you from my head
I find it hard for me to get past all the shit you did to me
In spite, at night I try in vain to get my mind at grasp
Tongue tied, I feel so terrified
I?m so sick of being on my own
This feels like suicide
Tongue tied, I feel so dead inside
Some things are better left alone
Completely out of sight ...
I wanna make sure
I wanna be clear
I want you to know
I love you my dear
Me, I'm so dirty, covered in spite
Maybe you'll come back
'Cause you want me, maybe you won't
But you are so young
Don't you feel dumb?
You're not the only unfortunate one
Unfortunate one
Held in your head
The bad things they did
And all of the lies
And bad things they said
Me, I'm unworthy, callous and cold
Maybe you nee...
Some thing's wrong, trying to conquer
These fears I thought were gone
And it's been so long
I'm dying to live in a world I don't belong
I can't wait for someone to hear me
And wait for someone to touch me
And wait forever to be told
I'm forever alone
I can't wait for someone to feel me
And wait for someone to heal me
And wait forever to be told
I'm forever alone
On my own, I'll show myself
Wha...
Fall to my knees
Just to be close to God
An' I fall to the floor from your love
I am weakened by your innocence
An' touched by your tenderness
I search just to find that you're enough
I'm here, here, here, here
Call on me, yeah, everything
Every moment I think of you
Is every thought that shatters
All this time just to break up
I'm bored and so alone, wake up
I'm bored and so alone, wake up
Wa...
Sometimes I feel like I'm losing it all
Abused and beat down I'm thrown to the wall
How can they do this to someone at all?
Something so awful
Woke up this morning, I hoped and I prayed
Nothing can stop me I'm well on my way
If I can have anything that I want
How can this happen?
We gain, we lose, we fall
And we stand right up again
We gain, we lose and we fall
And we stand right up again
I ca...